“If you know yourself,
you’ll not be harmed by what is said about you.”
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me.
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Träningspasset idag kändes jäkligt bra, bra kontakt med musklerna, lagom intensivt och väldigt härligt efteråt..phew! Finns nog ingen människa som skulle säga att det skulle kännas skit efter ett träningspass precis, men aah.. haha. Det blir inte så mycket mer cardio för min del längre utan jag fokuserar mest på vikter nu – eventuellt lite längre cardio någon gång i veckan i form av crosstrainer innan ett viktpass, annars blir det 10 minuter av det som uppvärmning innan jag ställer mig i favoritbåset. Tur har jag med en svärmor och svärfar som hoppar in och tittar till AD under timmen jag är borta. Guld.
Annars då? Efter middagen idag drog Ymyr, jag och Aaleyah iväg till IKEA för att inhandla lite möbler till bokrummet. Det rummet är nog det enda som fortfarande ser jävligt tråkigt ut, och ändå var det två år sedan som vi flyttade in……. haha. Hyllor, ramar och grejer. Ett enda projekt som vi dragit ut på så jäkla länge men nu är det fan dags att få till det också. AD sover sött och Ymyr lirar PS4, tänkte störa honom med en film nu. Eller Devious Maids. Inga fler dokumentärer på ett tag – inga som får mig att böla sönder i alla fall.. Appropå det så kikade vi omkring lite mer angående “White Helmets” och att donera – återkommer dock om det senare. Nu ska jag iväg och störa, ha en fin kväll! PUSS
English (shortened): I had a great workout this morning, got in good contact with my muscles, it was fairly intense, and it felt great afterwards! I hardly do any cardio anymore, except the 10 minutes before actually working out, and I mainly just focus on weights. So grateful to have my in-laws who gladly jump in to babysit AD while I’m gone for that hour.
What else? Ymyr and I spent the afternoon at IKEA and I got some new things for our book room. That room’s been one long project that we never seem to finish, haha, but now it’s time to change that.
AD’s sleeping and Ymyr’s playing ps4 so it’s time to bug him with a good movie. No more documentaries for a while – or at least none that make me bawl my eyes out – we kept reading a bit about White Helmets afterwards and found ways to help them out – more about that later. Now it’s time to bug the man, have a beautiful evening! KISS
– my little, happy babyyyyyy –
SOMETHING BASIC. Kikade omkring på Nelly lite grann och kom förbi denna. Tyckte att klänningen passar så jäkla bra till vardags och gör en hel outfit ihop med strumpbyxor och boots/thigh high’s! Jag orkar fan sällan tänka ihop byxor + topp + tröja till, så därför är det lätt med just klänningar. Tänk er denna + mysig halsduk + ponytail + boots + thin jewelry.
Vill klicka hem gobiten MEN jag är så jäkla trött (säkerligen mami också, hehe) på att behöva skicka allting till mamma och pappa för att de i sin tur ska skicka vidare/ta med till mig…..eeehhh. Kakdistance. Nelly erbjuder inte allting som erbjuds på den svenska sidan OCH när det väl gör det så äre fan inte kul att behöva betala frakt och skit.. haha (känns ungefär lika surt som att behöva betala för att gå till frisören nu för tiden när den grejen varit gratis under hela mitt liv också). Men ett tips till mina tjejer i alla fall! Helt klart ett plagg som går hem i höst. 209SEK, HERE. Just a tip, PUSS
fall seven times stand up eight.
I have had so many downfalls every time that I’ve made it back to the gym this year. And I don’t even have words for this year, really. I thought 2015 was bad.. but… it that had nothing on 2016. Nothing. Yet, we’re here and we’re happy, and still trying.
Anyhow. The hardest thing I used to know was to find the motivation to actually go to the gym, or do something good for myself. Why? I don’t know because it should be the easiest and kindest thing we could do to ourselves, yet we just make it so hard. Nowadays, and after all the spokes in the wheels, it feels like the most definite and certain thing to do when I have the time and have a stable health. I used to find it hard to drag myself to the gym in the beginning of workout-days, yet now I feel happy and appreciate when I can do so. It’s always the first steps that are the hardest, but once you get the wheel going, you’ll be feeling so good for doing it.
So this morning I got up earlier to get a feel of whether my body would let me go or not, and I’m SO going. AD’s still sleeping and luckily I have my mother-in-law who can keep an eye on her for 1-2 hours. I’m gonna go kicking it, POWER.Did anyone watch the “White Helmets” last night, by the way? Still recommending it.
What is it? A 40-minute glimpse into a dark world, lit up by the tireless efforts of an incredible group.
Why you’ll love it: Love is not the word. This is a film you need to see to begin to understand day-to-day life in war-torn Syria. A documentary crew follows the “White Helmets”, a group of volunteer rescue workers with branches all over the country, who risk their own safety to pull fellow citizens from bomb wreckage.
(watch trailer before you continue reading)
These days I avoid to read about all the things that go on in the world because it always leaves me so negative and bummed out, and I’m guessing it’s just some sort of defend mechanism that’s within us – we’re simply so sick of seeing this world crash down. Or I am. And I’ve lost hope for it and I don’t believe in politics, at all.
I lost my appetite for everything after watching The “White Helmets” – yet it’s one of the “best” documentaries I’ve seen – could hardly look myself around because I somewhat feel so embarrassed and ashamed for living in such a safe place – having food on my table and having the opposite life of these people. It’s just so unfair. Why do we live here and they there? What says that we can have it all and they can have nothing?
Seeing children scared is the one thing I hate the most, so seeing these terrified crying children asking their dead parents, who rescuers pulled out from the bombed buildings, to “not leave them” made my heart twist and I just… I don’t know. Knowing that this is what is going on right now as I’m typing this, makes me feel sick. Seeing these men run outside as soon as they hear an aircraft appear just so that they can see where it’s about to strike/bomb so that they can jump into their half working cars to try to save the innocent men, women, and children that have just been bombed.. Russia claims to fight ISIS, but they’re killing thousands of innocent people. Children for God’s sake – and if they’re not killed, their childhoods are taken forever.
Just watch this 40 minutes long documentary. The “White Helmets”, it’s called. My heart aches for the people and the picture below has me teary eyed again. Children.
Asså, hur jäkla mysigt är det inte med höst?! Kan nog inte säga det nog, men det är fan helt klart den mysigaste årstiden på året, följt av vintern dårå (med massor av snö annars är den fan skiten, haha). AD och jag strosade ut för lite ärenden tidigare idag: lillan helt tugged in i sin barnvagn och jag slängde på mig en kappa, regnstövlar och höll glatt upp ett stort paraply när vi bar iväg. Naturen är på sitt bästa i denna staden just nu.
Annars då? Jag checkade av ett träningspass imorse, storstädade och har gosat med min lilla tjej innan vi drog ut – inte mycket mer än så. Borde åka in till stan för att träffa upp Y där men latheten talar lite extra idag, haha. Får smöra för honom och säga att maten hemma är mycket godare än stället han vill dra till ikvää…. ;p
“You’re in my bones and my blood and my heart,” he said.
“I’d have to tear myself open to let you go.”
1 day old – 6 months old – 1 year old
MY HEART HURTS. I do not know what I’d do without these two in my life, not that I even need to think that way. They’re my happiness and my love, and a daily reminder of how blessed I am. To see them both together always gets my heart. Life’s given me lots of different tastes, and I am happy to have seen and felt as much as I have so far, but nothing beats the joy and amazement when having a baby with the love of your life. From teenagers; goofy and crazy, to riding motorbikes and having the craziest nights, to ten years later and having her. Just the thought of everything makes me feel so high on life.
Time to cuddle up with these two again, then work, and a good movie. XO
All you need (serves 2):
● 4oog salmon
● 3dl creme fraiche
● Feta cheese
TONIGHT’S. I love grilled salmon but if there’s one thing that comes close to how much I love it, it’s this oven-baked version that is soooo good – you have to try it! – healthy, and super simple. Here’s how you do it:
1) Put the salmon on a plate, salt it and squeeze lemon all over it
2) Mix creme fraiche and feta cheese (put in as much as you want of the feta, I like the super soft feta cheese) together, then add the dill that you’ve chopped
3) Put a layer of the mix over the salmon and bake it in the oven for about 20 minutes on 200℃.
Voila! I had this with a mix of cooked vegetables and potatoes. LOVE IT. If you like salmon, it’s a must-try or make it for someone that you know likes it. So good :))).
Hello cloudy Monday ♡
Aaleyah may have stayed up longer than usually last night but if there’s one thing I truly can’t wait for once she falls asleep, it’s the next day. She’s always so happy, and waking up to hearing her talking to herself always puts me in the right mood no matter how tired I can feel sometimes, my precious baby :)).
Alltså PANIIIIIK. Vår lilla tös nattas alltid mellan 8 och 9 (nio kallar jag seeent, hehe), och har man tur så slumrar hon till redan vid halv åtta, MEN ikväll fick hon sig en powernap i bilen när vi var på väg hem från fina N, och jeeez en sån otippad fest vi haft hemma, haha. Jag skrattar åt det nu men herrejävlar vad svårt det var att hitta lugnet i paniken som uppstod i huvudet när jag sneglade på klockan som visade tio samtidigt som nynnade till nattningsmelodin medan Aaleyah klappade händerna och lekte tittut. BAAAAAHHHH! SOOOOOV! Haha.
Annars har vi haft en grym kväll. Våra vänners bröllop blev hur grymt och kul som helst – fan vad vi har skrattat natten ut verkligen – ja, ihop med tårögda moments – första dansen som Mr and Mrs… *Snyftttttt* – och massor av god mat. De hade tema på bröllopet där tjejerna skulle ha rosa eller lila som detalj och killarna antingen turkos eller grönt (körde på rosa halsband, sjal, väska, och naglar – klänningarna jag fick hem kändes inte rätt och den ena hade en slits upp till…. aa, heheee..). Näe, fett lyckat verkligen, så jävla bra!
Anyhow. Söndag kväll och karln min och jag ska avrunda med Amanda Knox dokumentär – länk till trailern här – som går på Netflix hos oss. Hörs imorn babes! XO
I’ve felt so pale lately – not a surprise really, as I naturally have a cold skin tone – so I gave my skin a glow with a spray tan last night. I hadn’t been for a quite long time, got a little nervous regarding on how it would turn out, but the results turned out really good. Well, the only thing I told Ymyr in the car was that “the last thing I should do is cry because I’ll end up looking like this for about ten days”:
Haha. But then later that night I was close to tears as we were talking about some shit, yet instead of actually crying we ended up laughing like crazy because we were picturing me looking like this for so many days.. haha. Imagine having to go to a wedding like this?! Jeez. (our two friends are getting married tomorrow and my dresses still haven’t arrived.. Way to go Gona!)
Anyways, I can really recommend spray tans (at good places) as they’re completely harm free to your skin and give you such a fresh look – skip the damn solariums gals. It’s a perfect solution if you’re a little bit tired of the pale and want to pamper up the skin before an event or just in general.
Tonight Ymyr and I are going out to dinner with a pal from the US. Very excited since it’s been a while since we last saw each other. Have a good Friday babes! Just hoping my dresses will be delivered today…. Will seriously be so screwed if they don’t show up, heeeeeeh…. *sweating* TTYL
if you only knew.
Hello bloggie and hello Thursday, and hello babes ♥
I’ve hardly had any time to peek in here today, and frankly speaking no motivation either, hehe. I don’t really know what to write about, or what not, or if I feel like sharing anything, or nothing at all. I wish I could write out literally everything that’s on my mind, but that would never happen either. So everything just swirls up like one big mess, and there’s “too much of this” and “too much of that” – so at the end of the day I’m too tired to even deal with anything that feels too time consuming, because yeah.. just because. So, I end up saying nothing, hah…
BUT to share anything, I finally had my hair done today – roots, a cut, and a brazilian blowout. FINALLY. My hair’s been up in a bun for weeks straight because it’s just been “all over”, and now it will stay like this – healthy looking and straight – for a couple of weeks/months. YES. The before picture is not fair because I actually straightened my hair two days ago, which makes it look “”okay”” (my hair’s a lot more all over the place than that), but may I say I’m in love with the result. It’s as smooth as it is shiny! Caroline always makes me so happy, and it felt good with a little bit of alonetime today too – I actually had time to read about two chapters in my book, hah. That doesn’t happen very often anymore, perhaps because I suck at making time for myself, really. You like? I could definitely recommend this treatment to girls who want straight hair for a little while and simply just don’t want to damage it by using a straightener every single day.
“You never know what someone is going through. From the surface everything might appear to be fine but it’s only skin deep. You cannot downplay someone’s struggle based on what you see from the outside looking in. You cannot devalue someone’s suffering. You cannot tell someone how to feel.”
Get ’em HERE
I was in desperate need of new sport bra’s a few weeks ago, so the other day I got myself a few new pieces, and I parked my butt at HM. I think their bras are great, nice looking, and cheap (compared to the ones I find in actual sport stores), so that’s one good mix. I don’t understand how some women can work out/run in a normal bra?! First of all, those melons fly around everywhere, isn’t that annoying? Secondly, isn’t it super uncomfortable wearing a normal bra while working out? We could discuss whether I actually need sport bra’s at all anymore – haha – I swear AD’s pregnancy sort of took the last of what I had before that, but oh well…… Hahaha, yeah, actually laughing at my own sarcastic jokes about myself — typical.
But anyways, yes, bras. Sport bras! Check out HMs trendy collections – as for workout pants, I like to invest some more as I feel like all the cheaper ones I’ve got sort of lose elasticity quickly, whereas I’ve had my Nike sprinter pants for about.. seven or eight years now? Crazy (need new ones of those, too though – eight years are a lot… hehe).
“An entire sea of water can’t sink a ship unless it gets inside the ship. Similarly, the negativity of the world can’t put you down unless you allow it to get inside you.”
Jag skiter i detta nu. Inte en chans i världen att jag tar mig ännu en tråkigt lugn dag. Kroppen känns bra och jag lyssnar på den, så därför ska jag strosa iväg till gymmet för att testa den lite grann med ett lugnt tempo (LOVAR mamma). Självklart avråder jag varje person till att träna när de är krassliga eller sjuka – jag ser alltid åt att kroppen återhämtar sig helt innan jag drar tillbaka just för att något enkelt som en större förkylning kan lägga press på hjärtat, tex – och jag har varken feber eller är förkyld själv. Det är min andningskapacitet som inte legat på 100 sedan ingreppet och skit.
Säger kroppen nej så vet jag och går av direkt; men jag hoppas på att cardio gör mig gott rather than bad. Jag kan inte sitta still längre, fastän det är just trötthetskänslan som gjort att jag vart tvungen till att vila och inte givit mig energi till annat, så känner jag mig så rastlös och dum som inte gör något gott för den – som att träna, heeeeeh. Jag behöver min therapy box och är trött på alla käppar i hjulet, so fuck that, I’m done. Korsar fingrarna (heter det så? “cross my fingers”) för en bra start, inga äckliga bulltanden, och rätt kontakt med musklerna.
I eftermiddag ska AD och jag iväg till våra släktingar men innan dess: GYM TIME. Ain’t doing this shit without it ‘no mo’. PUSS
“…look, that night was as much a surprise to me as it was to you. But being with you was like going to a place that I had never been before. And after you fell asleep I just laid there, staring up at those cheap fluorescent stars you have stuck on your ceiling, and – after a while they just started forming a pattern, this weird glow-in-the-dark pattern that linked together our entire relationship. And for the first time everything seemed clear to me – like one logical progression. It felt like you and I were the greatest plan ever made and I had nothing to do with it. Being with you made me feel that maybe I didn’t have to keep planning anymore because it felt like I was actually living. And that for once in my life I wouldn’t have to work so hard at being happy…”
What I’d do without you? I wouldn’t know, I wouldn’t know.
If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.
You won’t have to beg, stress, sweat, plot, or plan.
If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.
CUDDLES. You know what I miss? Your posts. Remember the xoxoAnonymous-posts? To my new readers, those are posts that are anonymously written by you – and you can leave them as comments here anonymously (you don’t need to type in name or e-mail), or you could e-mail them to me and I would post them for you (with or without name, depending on what you’d want). Seriously, your posts were awesome and I miss them. Yups, I do. And I’m pretty dang sure you do, too.
● One cup coconut water
● Half of a grapefruit
● Half of a banana
● A hand full of raspberries (frozen this time)
● A blender + a baby’s approval
Voila! My morning drink, my refreshing morning drink (I added a few drops of lemon in it too). I think this is one of my favorite ones, actually, and AD loves them too. This time she only got to try it a little, other ways I just like to stick to water + peer or apple + banana for her. Happy she’s a fruiteater (all eater actually) like me, and we often have to fight over the fact that she should eat HER food (we eat quite spicy at times and I don’t give her that), yet she insists on always trying whatever we eat.. phew!
The other day my mother-in-law had left her coffee cup (it was nearly empty and cold) on the table in the livingroom, and as I was doing work on my computer by our kitchen island, I heard *cling cling cling* followed by a mellow “Mmmmmmmmmm….!”..*cling cling cling*, and I saw our little “belaxhie” with the spoon in her mouth, and coffee all around her face – so happy that she’d managed to get it. Like, really mami? Even COFFEE?!.. Haha.
Anyhow, back to the juice: Refreshing as heck and I can recommend you to make them in the morning! *happy emoji with tongue sticking out*. Good morning, by the way :)). It’s time to get ready for the city with my little all-eater. XO
That was one interesting talk! Unfortunately I found the topic very broad and there was too little time to cover most of it, but from what we got to hear this was very interesting and was happy w went. I wish there was more input – especially from Robert – and more discussions between the two of them, but then I guess it may feel more comfortable trying to keep a more neutral tone and nodding to what the other person says, rather than criticising it. With more time – I guess one could stay for days and listen, honestly speaking – I believe things would loosen up, and there would’ve been actual discussions and questionings, BUT I still enjoyed it and I’m so impressed with my girl friend, who’s one of the organisers. This whole thing got me snowed in on the topic and I’m realizing there’s so much more I want to learn. If you have any good Albanian related books, please shoot. I need to fill my bookshelf.
Anyhow, back home and I feel like a ghost. This whole procedure’s got me so tired and all I want to do is practically sleep, hehe. How can my lips be pink? In my mind they’re white or grey. But to keep it on the bright, I’m better than I was 2-3 days ago and I’ll prolly be feeling even better tomorrow. Will energize myself with a bunch of blended juices and a dose of Aaleyah and Zoey then, höhö.
New sweater from ZARA (the coziest one, too).
When they spoil her too much. But there’s nothing cuter than tiny UGGS on babies – always checking out the mini collection even before we had plans on having a little baby ourselves, haha. There’s something about baby fashion, yeah?
Anyhow, how’s your day been? I’m making dinner and then Ymyr and I are getting ready for this debate/discussion that we’re going to watch. There’s this guy, Oliver Jens Schmitt, who claims that Albanians aren’t Illyrians, and the other man is big guy Dr. Robert Elsie, who certainly claims that we are. Super excited to hear Schmitts arguments on this. TTYL